This is not about that.

This multimedia performance explores memory as a process of continuous updating, where remembering and forgetting are not opposites but overlapping forms of rewriting. Rather than treating memory as a stable archive, the work frames it as a system that produces partial access, distortion, and loss each time it is approached. Moments of searching generate brief encounters with clarity, but these encounters simultaneously destabilize what they attempt to retrieve, producing a condition in which proximity to memory intensifies its disappearance. Through this logic, the performance focuses on the sensory and structural experience of trying to access something that shifts under the act of access itself. 

The work is grounded in ideas of surveillance, visibility, and self-observation, where perception operates as a regulating force rather than a neutral act. Drawing on environments of control and restricted access, it considers how systems of watching and being watched extend inward, shaping how the self organizes its own history and identity. Memory, in this context, becomes a site where the subject is continuously revised—an unstable negotiation between what is retained, what is discarded, and what can never be fully reached.

Created and performed by Irmak Sagir

Lighting Design and Stage Management by Eric Seeley